The Memory of Love

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The Memory of love เป็นเรื่องสั้นที่แต่งไว้ตอนที่ยังเรียนอยู่ โปรดมองข้ามเรื่องแกรมม่า อาจจะมีตกหล่นไปเยอะ แต่พอได้เนื้อความ ชอบไม่ชอบยังไง คอมเม้นไว้ได้นะคะ

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      It is the sunny day of November in California, USA. I’m sitting in the corner of the coffee shop, waiting for my close friend. I’m looking the crowded people outside the coffee shop. Four years passed but everything is still the same. The shops outside, the crowded people walk very fast, and everything outside is as same as last four years but my heart is not.

Last four years…    

 I was sitting on my favorite swing in the yard like every day. It was my new house. My family had been here for 5 days. I really loved this house; the clear white house, fresh green yard in the back of our house, and nice scene of bed room made me feel happy to live here. My most favorite thing in this house was the white swing in this yard. However, I didn’t really know about our neighbors but I hoped that they will be the good and kind neighbors.

“Ouch!!” There’s something very hard bumps my head. I stared for the cause of the swollen head. Then, I found the fallen ball in the back of the bush. I walked through that bush and stared at the ball.

“Hey, what are you doing with my ball? Give it back to me.” I stared at that boy very angrily. He shouted from the opposite site of the wall.

“Is he my new neighbor?” I asked myself and walked forward to him.

“Be careful for your speech. This ball hit my head very very hard. You have to apologize me not be impolite like this.” I said. He froze for a while and said

“Oh!! Really? That is my mistake but what can I do…. But... How can I know that you were there? Sorry anyways” he ran into his house quickly

“I really hate this person” I told myself. “Here’s your ball be careful for the next time but I think it will be better if you try to stop playing because it really disturb others.” I shouted and walked away immediately.

“I got a wrong expect with my neighbor. Maybe they might be not really good neighbor.”

  It was the first day at my new school. I got a new close friend very fast. She was very cute blond hair girl with round face and clear white skin. She was very talkative and friendly.

“I’m Jennifer. You are really cute Kate. I’m also the new student. I think we can be good friends.” Said Jennifer

We spent all our time in the school together. After the first week in new school, I found out that Jennifer is a dreamy girl.

“I hope that someday I can find someone who can look after me, care for me, and love me. Then, we will spend all of our lives together” she said dreamily

         I was sitting on the swing, listening to pop music from my iPod, and reading my novel. Then, I felt like someone was sitting on the left swing beside me. I turned my face to that person. It was him again.

“I don’t really want to disturb you. I just want to find somewhere I can take some rest from the trouble. Let me sit here, I swear that I will not make any trouble” he said

“What’s wrong?” I asked. I didn’t think that the person who was really annoying will have a great trouble. Although I didn’t know what that trouble is, I saw some anxious flash in his eyes just for awhile.

“Nothing, It’s just a little thing. I forgot, I’m Jesper. I’m sorry for hurting you last time, Katy” “He knows my name?” I though. He closed his eyes and started to swing quietly. As well as me, I gazed at him quietly too. I wanted to say something but I didn’t know what to say. Am I worried about him?

“You are not good in sport, right?” Jennifer asked me after we lose two basketball games in Sport class. I nodded.

“We will lose all game. Beware Kate!” Jennifer screamed and I did not perceive anything.

After I woke up, Jennifer told me that I was hit by the ball. She also told me that some ideal guy brought me to the nurse room. “It’ seems like he was really worried about you, Kate” said Jennifer. She was very good friend when I got some problem like this. She looked after me very carefully and also asked me for anything I want. Do you want some water? or Do you want to go to toilet? I really appreciated her sympathy but I really wonder who was he?

After that accident, I had to take a rest at the house for 2 days. I had nothing to do so I walked through the yard toward my swing. Then he came again.

“Do you still hurt? I mean your head” he asked

“How do you know?” I ask him back immediately

“I brought you to the nurse room. How can I don’t know about it” he looked at me very meaningfully. After that, there was only the silence between me and Jesper but not for my heart. It seemed like there were million butterflies in my stomach and my heart was nearly exploded.

Two days later, I went back to the school. Jennifer was really worried about me. She did everything for me.

“The way you treat is like I’m a disable, Jen” I laughed

“I’m really worried about you, Kate” I looked inside her eyes very thankfully

“Thanks Jen you are a very good friend. I will try the best to be a good friend of you too. I promise that I will not betray you” I said very faithfully. She smiled.

“Kate, do you see that guy? He brought you to the nurse room that day. I really like him. He is my ideal guy who I try to find for being my love.”  She pointed to Jesper

“I hope that he do not have any girl. I will try to tell him. Will you help me, Kate?”

Those words stunned me. I didn’t know what to say to her.

“I’m sorry for hurting you as well as speak to you very impolitely. I was really nervous. When I see your face, I don’t know what to say to you. I’m pretty sure that you got what I mean”

The words that Jesper said to me last two nights flowed into my head. I knew that I also think the same with him after I know him more but how can I accepted that. Jennifer liked Jesper and I swore to Jennifer that I will not betray her. What should I do? I cannot found out the answer.

Two weeks after…

      Today is the last day of the senior. Everybody in our school have to gather in the school hall for senior graduating.

“Today is the last day that I can talk to him. I will ask him for being my love today. Do you agree?”

“Yes!!…. oh! Sure it’s good.. great”

“Kate, what’s wrong with you. Are you sick? You look so strange. Are you still in pain?” she asked very anxious

“No, I’m ok.”

She was so considerate. What should I do? After Jesper talked to me last night, I ask myself and look inside my mind. I know that I really like him but Jennifer is my friend. I don’t want her to be sad.

 “I have to help her. I will help her.” I decided very certainly

“This is the time that all you guys are waiting for. The performance of the best band of our school ‘the Beast’” the emcee was shouting very proudly on the stage. After the hard screamed of the tons of students, I saw five persons on the stage. Moreover, one of the members in the guy who makes my heart was not rhythmically beat, Jesper. He was the singer of the Beast band.

“I will tell him after the concert finished” Jennifer said very sturdily

I didn’t know how long the concert took. I cannot concentrate with the concert. There were only the words of Jesper said to me last night and the words of Jennifer said to me about Jesper flowed in my head. “I have to escape this place.” I talked to myself... But!!

“Everyone have a chance in their life but not too much time that the chance will face us. Today is my last day in this school. So, it is my last chance to do the thing I really want to do too.” Jesper said

It seemed like a big rope tied me to stand here. I can’t step. Then, he continued his speech.

“If this is the last chance that I can see someone who I love, I want to tell her right away”

Suddenly, he walked through the crowd toward me and Jennifer. I looked at Jennifer. She was smiling hopefully.

“He comes this way. What will he do?” Jennifer said but I nearly die. I hope that he will not come to me. He passed Jennifer and walked toward me. I looked at Jennifer again. She was looking back with pale face. Jesper stopped in front of me

“Kate, I know that you got my feeling. This may my last chance to tell you what I really feel. I love you at the first sight. That’s the reason I cannot talk to you in the first day we met. Please accept my heart.” He knelt

My heart was strongly beat. It was not because of his speech but the expression of Jennifer. She was crying and then running out of the hall.

“Jen” I shouted

“Say something, Kate. Tell me how do you feel? Do you feel the same?” Jesper asked

“Jen!!, Sorry Jesper I gotta go… sorry” I ran toward Jennifer. I didn’t want to make Jennifer sad. I promised her that I will not betray her. I will not love Jesper. That was the best way for me to do in this time.

Jennifer was at the yard behind our school. She was crying.

“Jen, Are you ok?”

“Why it is not me? I really love him. Why it’s you?” she stared at me very sorrowfully. “However, it’s you. You are a good girl and you are my friend I can accept that. Don’t worry”

“You don’t have to say that, Jen. I’m your friend. I promised you that I won’t betray you.”

“What do you mean? You didn’t accept him?”

“Yes, I do not accept that wish. You are my best friend. How can I do that?” I answered and hugged my friend very sincerely. Jennifer halted for a minute. Then she asked

“Do you love him, Kate?”

….

I cannot answer that question until now. Although there were 4 years passed, I cannot forget all the things that happened on that day. After that day, Jesper has moved to Hanford and never got back. I’ve never heard about him for all 4 years.

After I graduated from that school, I admitted in California State University with Jennifer. Now Jennifer and I work in the same company. We get closers more and more because of that event.

“I’ve never found any friend who is good as you. I will try to do my best for being a good friend of you too.” she said

I’ve been waiting in the coffee shop, watching the crowded people for half an hour. It’s too long time for waiting something or someone but it is not too long time comparing with the time I have waited for this day for 4 years.

I’m look at my hand watch, bill, and walk outside the coffee shop. I walk through the garden to my favorite swings, sit on one of them, and close the eyes.

“Sorry I’m late” said the man who is just arrived

I hardly try to open my eyes. I cannot raise my face up to that person. Again, million butterflies start flying inside my stomach. I try to raise my head up, stare at that person, and open my mouth.

“That’s ok.” I look at the familiar eyes. Those both eyes are still the same with last 10 years, the eyes which I really miss.

“How’s everything?” asked Jesper

“Everything is all the same” I say back meaningfully. He smiles as well as me. “This is the thing that I really want. This is the thing that I had to do on the graduated day.” I tell my heart.

The voice of Jennifer resounds inside my ears. “You don’t have to sacrifice for me a lot. You want to be a good friend by injuring your heart. It makes me become a very bad friend. I want to see my best friend to be happy. Just this time Kate, listen to your heart carefully. Do the thing that your heart really wants to. You have waited for 4 years. Chance is not always be yours. Now, it’s coming. Let it be yours.”

Yes, I asked my heart carefully and it told me to do this. I will not hide my feeling. I will do the thing I want. I want the man who is in front of me now to be with me for all the rest of my life. Am I become the dreamy girl like my best friend now?

In the day of love of Jesper and Katy, there is the blond girl looking at them outside of the coffee shop. “She is happy, my best friend. I did the right thing” Said Jennifer. She smiles and steps out quietly.