It begin with the Valentine's day of 2020. That's the year of Coronavirus'19 spread. Two families have a schedule to suggest their childs to know each other. He is white tall and polite. In the past few years we go out a lot to have lunch. But I do not know him well cause he quite cautious and becareful not talkative about himsellf. Sometimes I don't know what our relationship calls. I think he at least know that I'm cry a lot that I cannot express myself to him cause I feel he like to be alone. Why? He not call me or text me only when the sun go down he left me waiting to long like I'm texting in the morning why he disappear or text me back. And the most in our conversation it about the meal what are you eating? There is no progress in our relationship so I cannot tell anyone with all my heart that he is my bf. In Christmas this year, I will tell him that let me go if he don't want to talk to me or just talk because his duty from his mom. I knew he know himself but he afraid that I'm gonna sad but If he left it like this me gonna feel sadder. Dear Santa, In this Christmas day I wish he tell the true feeling with me and let me go.