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THE BALLAD OF MY SORROW

**Thought of innocent**

u made me happy

to get to know you

made my heart shinning bright

my wrist is bleeding rite now

the note will only be my last sight

im sad, im thru wit this life.

how?

its cold, shook me everytime

think about that moment

eveyone turn their backs on me

its in my eye

i wish i could be free

but trapped inside, i still am

u got me out

of this cage that used to be jammed

it hurts

i can't stand this pain, without doubt

back then

since im out

im so free, i could do anything

and u r everything

**THIS IS HOW I DISAPPEAR**

and without you

is how i disappear

and live my life alone

forever now

can you hear me,

cry out to you?

can u feel me,

touch you from the dark?

well you cant hear me anymore

because im just a ghost

so i cant hurt you anymore

so i cant hurt you.....anymore

you wanna see how far down i can sink

let me go....FUCK!!!!

**MAMA**

mama, we all go to hell

im writing, you this letter.....to wish you well

mama, we all go to hell.

mama, we all full of lies

mama, we meant for the files

and rite now, they build a coffin....my side

mama, you are full of lies

**YOU DON'T LOVE ME ANYMORE**

well

when you go

dont ever think, i will try to make

you stay.

and maybe when u get back

i'll be off find another way.

and after all

this time that you still owe

you are still good-for-nothing i dont know

so take your stuff and get out

better get out

while you can.

when you go, would you even turn to say

"i don't love you like i did, yesterday"

sometimes i cried so hard from pleading

so sick

and tired

of all these needless beating.

but when they knock you down

and out

is where u oughta stay.

and after all this blood that you still owe

another dollar's just another blow.

so fix ur eyes and get out,

better get out

WHILE YOU CAN.

**FAMOUS LAST WORDS**

So many

brightlights to cast a shadow

but can, i speak?

well, its hard to understanding

i'm incomplete

my life is so demanding

i get, so weak

i love that is so caring

i cant speak

i am real, afraid

to keep on living

i am real, afraid

to walk to road alone

Honey if u stay, i'll be forgiven

nothing you can say, can stop me

die alone.

can't you see, my eyes are

shining bright

cause you're outta here, on the other side

and i'm so weak

is it hard to understanding

i'm incomplete

a girl thats so demanding

i get so weak...............

i see you lying

next to me, with words i thought i'd never speak

awake and unafraid

asleep or dead.

**I DON'T CARE**

do or die, you'll never make me

because the world will never take my heart

go and try, you'll never break me

i want it all, i wanna play this part.

u wont explain, or say u r sorry

i'm unashamed, im gonna show you my scars

give a cheer for ur beloved broken

listen here, because its who i am

i'm just a kid, im not a hero

i'm just a boy, who had to sing this song

i'm just a kid, i'm not a hero

I

dont

care..........

**IT's NOT A FASHIONSTATEMENT, IT'S A DEATHWISH**

for what u did to me

and what i

do to you

you'll get

what everyone else gets

you'll get a life time.

do you remember back at when we met

you told me

thing gets harder

well, it did. been holding on forever

promise me that, when i'm gon

you'll kill my enemies

The damage you inflicted

temporary wounds

i'm coming back from the dead

and i'll take you home wit me

i'm taking back the life

you stole

we never got that far

this helps me to think through the night

bright lights that, wont kill me now

or tell me how

just you and i

your starless eyes,

remain.

This hole you put me in

wasn't deep enough, and im climbing out rite now

you're running out of places

to hide from me

when you go, just know that i will

remember you

if living was the hardest part

we'll then one day,

be together.

but if the end we'll fall apart

just like the leaves changing colors

and then i'll be with you

i'll be there, one last time.

when you go, just know that i'll remember you.

i lost my fear of falling.

will you be with me?

will you?

**CAN YOU**

so far away

from you

well, im so

far away.